Tag: healthy living

Green Means GO

“Life is really simple, but we insist on making it complicated.” — Confucius.

One of the most complicated parts of a healthy lifestyle, for me, is meal choice and planning. Knowing what to eat can really be the make or break of feeling successful. For many years, I have thought I was eating healthy and could not understand why nothing changed. I would eat foods I perceived as healthy and feel good about my choices, only to find out what I thought was healthy wasn’t healthy for me at all. This can be very frustrating. Far worse, the complexity of this can be very overwhelming and truly make one feel like giving up.

Anyone who has read my blog knows that I am about keeping it simple to keep it accessible for all. I need simplicity to feel motivated. Weighing food, calculating macros, meal prepping and all those other strategies are good, but have not been sustainable for me for many reasons. In order to avoid that, I invested in a good food logging app to better understand my eating habits. I have used My Fitness Pal for years and when in doubt about my eating patterns, I always go back to logging to see what is happening. Another app I have used is Noom, an app meant to teach you about your eating patterns by categorizing foods into categories, not based on good or bad, but rather on how much you should consume of each. Both are great apps to gain insight into your eating patterns and uncover why you are not getting the results you want.

Another simple tool I use is Dr Sears Wellness Institute’s Traffic Light Eating which I learned about during my Health Coach certification courses. Traffic Light Eating is based on the familiar concept of driving a car. A traffic light is meant to guide use when driving and can be used in the same way when making choices about food. It’s so simple, Dr Sears uses this with his pediatric patients! 

Green means “go”
Yellow tells us to “slow down”
Red means “stop” and think

Again, like Noom’s system, there are no judgements made about foods we eat and doesn’t ban foods. We all know that taboo placed on foods can make them more desireable. Rather, this tool focuses us on how often and how much of certain foods we consume. Below are the breakdowns of each category on our traffic light used to help us when making selections of food.

Green Light Foods

Green light foods include all fruits and vegetables. They are grown and not manufactured or process artificially. These foods are low in calories and high in nutrients. They provide color to our plates and can be eaten raw or cooked. Green light foods are foods which can be eaten generally free of worry, barring any personal health issues you may have. They are considered go foods and make great choices for all meals and snacks and should play a prominent role in your selections. They were also the group I noticed I wasn’t eating enough of.

Yellow Light Foods

Yellow light foods are fine to eat everyday, but in moderation as they are considered slow down foods. You do not have to give them up, or feel badly if you do eat them. These are the foods, I learned, made up my entire diet. Yellow light foods include: pasta, rice, bread, tortillas, noodles, eggs, lean meat, chicken, low fat yogurt, nuts and seeds, olive oil, soy foods, whole grains, fish, low fat cheese, and vegetable oil.

Red Light Foods

Red light foods are known as “stop” and think foods. We don’t have to eliminate them entirely from our lives, but we should look for different options, or eat them less frequently. When we do choose then, we should pay specific attention to our portions and go smaller. These foods are low in nutrients and high in calories, fat or sugar. Many contain artificial sweeteners or trans-fats. Think about that cookie you ate last night, that would fall in the red zone. You wouldn’t want to eat the whole bag, or eat them every day, but one cookie will not make you fat or a failure. This group, I learned, was my go to group especially when tired, upset or super hungry.

All these tools are very easy to use and guide you as you learn more about your food choices. I appreciated that none of them made me feel badly about myself for my eating patterns. Rather, they seek to empower you through building your knowledge about food. I find myself making better choices in my overall daily eating, including when eating at a restaurant. The biggest change for me was in increase in my intake of vegetables and fruit. 

I recommend you start by looking at your pantry, refrigerator or dinner plate. Start to think about which category the majority of your fall falls in. No judgement, just notice. If you don’t want to do this, I recommend you think about using an app to guide you. Log your food and notice what the analysis tells you about your food patterns. Once you have this data, you can make some adjustments to your food selection and notice what impact it has on you. They say what gets measured gets improved. I fully agree, but what I’d like to measure is not my quantity of food, but my knowledge about the quality of it. 

If you have any questions about the apps, or traffic light eating, feel free to reach out through email at laurakump@reclaiminghealth.blog , Instagram or through the comment section below.

Hold On

Coming out of the holidays, I found myself feeling under the weather. It is so hard to stay on track when we aren’t feeling well. Our body needs rest and we want to keep pushing, but rest is what we need. I’ve learned that our body knows best what it needs, if we choose to listen. This time, I chose to listen. 

I was in bed for a week with the flu at the holidays. Initially, I wasn’t hungry at all. After, I was so hungry that I found myself craving foods I haven’t been eating, think pizza, pasta and snacks. In the past, this time of year was always when I went down the rabbit hole, beat myself up for being lazy and gave up. If I look deeply at my health journey, I see the patterns so clearly. Spring and Summer, highly active periods with good habits, motivation and weight loss. Fall holding steady. Winter lower energy period with weight gains and loss of interest in healthy habits. When I was young, I used to call it my hibernation period during which I needed the extra weight to get through. It just became the normal flow of my life.

If you’ve been following my journey, you know how central being outside in nature is to it. I believe strongly that being outdoors has helped me physically and emotionally. I realize now that the patterns I’ve cycled through each year, make perfect sense as part of the cycles of nature where I live. It is normal for me to have slightly less energy during the wintering period. Knowing this helps me feel better about myself, but I want to be clear it doesn’t give me a pass to give up on my healthy habits, which is what I have done every year. 

I recently read a quote that said, if you want different results, you have to do something different. Common sense for sure, but research shows habits are hard to change. For me, I’m keeping it simple this year. I am holding on as best I can. I wake up each morning with good intentions and a plan.

  • I drink my healthy morning shake no matter how I feel, or what I did or didn’t do the day before. 
  • I try to eat healthy foods, but allow myself forgiveness if I veer off course.
  • I move my body every day, rain or shine no less than 30 minutes a day outside in nature. 
  • I get at least 8 hours of sleep and try to maintain my sleep schedule.
  • I found an indoor space so I can continue to play pickleball four times a week.
  • I am now back in the gym lifting light weights at least twice a week.

The best advice I can give is to hold on tight to the goal of a healthy life. It is the most important work we will ever engage in. It’s truly easier to give up, hibernate an just give up. That will only leave us back at it in the Spring and redoing what we have done each year. This year, I hope to start my high energy period in much better health space than any year before. I hope you will join me in that goal. In order to do that, take some time to reflect on your health patterns across the year. What do you notice? What does that mean for you at this moment in time? Most importantly, what will you commit to do this year?

Please let me know what you decide and how it goes. Sharing your journey will help us all to learn and grow. Leave a comment below, visit me on Instagram or email me at laurakump@reclaiminghealthblog.com . I look forward to learning together.

Things I’m Letting Go Of

 “Authenticity is the daily practice of letting go of who we think we’re supposed to be and embracing who we are.”

— Brené Brown

2023 was quite the year of change for me, not because I wasn’t good enough as I was, but because it was needed to thrive. Fate has a way of getting our attention sometimes and you just know it’s go time. My health was at what I’d describe as my lowest place and it was starting to manifest itself in scary ways. I felt like I was struggling to think clearly and the lack of sleep for months was starting to put my body in a dangerous health space. Having the option to retire, but not feeling it was the right time to do it, fate gave me the clear signal it was time. My husband became ill suddenly in late November 2022 and required surgery. With a 90% blockage in what is called the “widow maker” artery in his heart, I realized just how close we came to losing it all. These life events really make you stop in your tracks.

Realizing just how lucky we were to have gotten through this, I knew it was time to make some changes to my lifestyle choices. My husband was in far better health than I was, or so we thought, so I worried about what was happening inside my body. Following full medical checkups, I began again the journey to reclaim my health. Where in the past, it may have been easy to become derailed, this time I knew the actual stakes involved in making these necessary changes.

2024 will be the continuation of this journey as I continue to focus on learning and growing my knowledge base to improve my choices. I am continuing my focus on self growth and plan to take a deeper dive into my yoga practice starting this month. I am taking a yoga teacher training course to deepen my understanding of Hatha yoga. Self reflection will remain the cornerstone of my work when it comes to life choices and health. With that in mind as I begin 2024, I am reflecting on things I will be letting go and things I will grow. 

Things I Will Be Letting Go Of

  • Making assumptions - I have no way of knowing another’s motives, so I will not engage in trying to.
  • Negative self talk – I am breaking up with my inner critic.
  • Overthinking – I can’t analyze everything
  • Saying no too quickly
  • Alchohol – I never knew just how much it ages me
  • Doing too much – Overdoing just exhausts me and I don’t have to do it all
  • Fear of failure – I don’t have to be perfect all the time to succeed, especially as I try new things

Things I Will Grow

  • Relationships – Continue making new friends and deepen the relationships I have
  • Self Love – Continuing to be kinder to myself through self reflection and meditation walks
  • Saying Yes – Stepping outside the comfort zone and trying new things. Adding to the bucket list.
  • Boundaries – Being more conscious of creating healthy boundaries as I engage in my relationships.
  • Healthy Lifestyle – What can I learn and do to continue on this journey?

These are my thoughts as of today, January 2, 2024. I am sure there are more items I need to reflect on and will grow or revise this list as I go through the year. What can you let go of this year, what can you keep and grow? I’d love to hear about your journey, so feel free to reach out through email at laurakump@reclaiminghealth.blog or comments below. May you have a healthy and happy year of growth in 2024.

I Am Enough

“You are enough, just as you are. Each emotion you feel, everything in your life, everything you do or do not do… where you are and who you are right now is enough. It is perfect. You are perfect enough.” – Melanie Jade.

“The single most revolutionary thing you can do is recognize that you are enough.” – Carlos Andres Gomez.

This time of year always seems to put so much pressure on us all. Coming out of the holidays, where perhaps we ate and drank more than usual, we can be upset with ourselves for our lack of ability to control ourselves. Couple this with being inundated with commercials and advertisements for the new year and all its promise to change our ways and start anew. Deeply rooted in these promises are the premise that we are imperfect and in need of changing. The new year, new you machine has long been a multimillion dollar business that preys on our deepest insecurities. 

Gym memberships, diet pills, meal plans and quick fixes are so successful because we all want to believe that we can change ourselves into a better version. Sadly, come February we likely will confirm what we knew all along, we are incapable of reaching perfection. The gym trips will stop, the diet pills will go in the trash and we will settle in to the acceptance of yet another year of failed promises.

This year, I’d love to see us say no to this idea that we are not perfect. A few years back, my daughter gave me a coin and affirmation to remind me that I Am Enough. I have read it and reread it and really tried to internalize the message. I think I have finally reached a new year in which I am not striving to change myself. Amen!

The best advice I can give is that acceptance of yourself, AS YOU ARE, can and will lead you to a healthier space. There is nothing we need to change, fix or get rid of. Wherever we are in our journey is enough. Remember, I am not on a diet, nor looking to lose weight to be thinner, prettier or happier. I am trying to live a healthier lifestyle to be healthier and hopefully a longer and fuller life. 

Reminding ourselves daily that we are enough as we are is important work. The feelings of inadequacy are often deeply rooted in our being and our inner critic has been empowered for years. Taking back our power is the work to engage in during this new year. Reminding yourself daily, especially when self doubt creeps back in is your action plan. Every time you look in the mirror remind yourself that you are enough just as you are. Every time you feel the inner critic rear their ugly voice, remind yourself that you are enough.  Put a sign on your mirror, your closet, inside your front door and your refrigerator! Say it, breathe it, chant it and most importantly live it. Find others who will support you on this mission, for free. You are worthy and so am I. 

I truly believe in the power of positivity, though I cannot promise it to be the easiest road. It is not a quick fix, but it can be life changing. Let’s make a promise to ourselves this year to stay strong in our belief that we are enough, just as we are right now. We have nothing to change or fix. We are enough just as we are.

Have a healthy and happy New Year. I look forward to sharing your health journey in the coming months. 

The Rule of Twos:Eating Habits for Better Health

Last week, we discussed inflammation and the impact it can have on our health. As part of my health certification course, we spent a lot of time learning ways to improve our health, including diving deeply into our eating habits. I personally have struggled with inflammation and the effects it has on my health. I mistakenly assumed I could diet my way to good health for years. The problem with that is the word diet, and believe me I have tried them all and had the same results, weight loss followed by weight gain with little impact on my overall health.

I first learned of inflammation, back in 2010, when I was diagnosed with rheumatoid arthritis, which is arthritis caused by inflammation. That was the first I learned that certain foods have the power to make us feel better, or worse when we consume them. During this coursework, I went beyond this understanding and added the knowledge that my actual eating habits themselves have an effect on inflammation and overall gut health. 

The Rule of Twos and the opening quote shared above, ”Fast eaters are fat eaters, has my name written all over it. Anyone who knows me, knows I am a super fast eater. As kids, we were taught not to talk with our mouths full, so eating was serious business. Eat, then we could talk, laugh and linger. I had no idea that this habit could actually impact my health, especially my gut health. I thought it was more important to focus on what I actually ate. I have heard to slow down my eating, but thought the main reason was to allow the brain to catch on to the fact that it had been fed. 

The Rule of Twos, is simple and has absolutely helped improve my eating habits. Further, it can help with inflammation, indigestion and constipation. The rule simply reminds you to:

  • Eat twice as often.
  • Eat half as much.
  • Chew twice as long.
  • Take twice the time to dine.

Grazing, or eating smaller amounts of food, throughout the day is a new approach to eating for me. On a good day, when working, I ate one big meal and maybe a yogurt at night. This grazing approach can decrease spikes in your blood sugar levels and help stabilize your insulin levels throughout the day. Eating less can also improve your digestion as your body has less food at once to metabolize, or digest. I find it very satisfying to eat this way and enjoy my healthy snacks as well. The trick there is to have things on hand to nibble on during the day, greek yogurt, humus, cut raw vegetables, fruit and nuts make great, easy to grab and go snacks. 

Eating half as much will help me eat less, but I think of it now as letting my body tell me what it actually needs, guiding my portions. When I make my plate now, I put half as much as I used to on it. When I finish eating that, I pause before even thinking of taking seconds. Most days I realize I don’t need to eat anymore. As the weeks have passed, I find myself satisfied with this new portion size, even when eating out. 

Chewing twice as long is something I am working on as a recovering fast eater. Chewing can definitely slow me down, but there is far more to this than just that fact. Digestion, I’ve learned, starts in your mouth, not your stomach. When you chew your food, it gets broken down into smaller pieces which are easier to digest. When mixed with saliva, chewing allows your body to extract the greatest possible amount of nutrients from the food you eat. This is why it is said you should not drink with, or immediately after eating. 

The last part of taking twice as long to dine, allows me to spend some quality time at the table relaxing and reflecting. In the past, once I was done eating, I would get up and immediately start cleaning up. Now, I spend some time at the table, engaged in conversation, if I am not eating alone. If I am alone, I take some time now to jot down thoughts in my daily journal, or just relaxing before cleaning up.

The Rule of Twos is super easy to incorporate into your wellness routine, with nothing to buy or study. The changes are indeed small, but the impact on your health and wellness will be large. Why not give it a try for a few weeks and see how you feel? If you do, please let me know how it went. Have questions about how to get started, shoot me an email, or leave a comment and I’ll get back to you to brainstorm a few ideas.

Small Changes, Big Results

As part of my health coach certification, I learned many science based tools for healthier living. I’d love to share some with you, as I have found these small changes have had a big impact on my journey. I am a mere 18 pounds away from my target weight, a goal that once seemed impossible when I was 60 pounds away. I’m no longer focused on just my weight though, as I realize my health journey transcends more than just that number.

Over the next few weeks, I ‘d like to share a few of the tips I found most helpful on my own personal journey to wellness. This week, I’d like to share information about foods that help reduce inflammation in your body. Inflammation is a natural process by which your body protects itself from outside invaders, such as bacteria and viruses. Inflammation is often seen as bad, but it is the body’s way of protecting itself. The problems arise when we have too little, or too much inflammation in our body.

Many of us are battling chronic inflammation, due to our lifestyles, which isn’t healthy for our body. Diet, weight gain, illness, injury and life stressors can wreak havoc on our bodies, as my story has illustrated. Weight gain and inflammation affect the production of the hormone leptin, which works in your brain to regulate metabolism and control your appetite. Lower levels of leptin will make you feel hungry, adding to your inability to loose weight. In simple language, inflammation leads to weight gain and weight gain leads to inflammation. You are effectively stuck in this loop and seemingly unable to get out.

Your diet, meaning the foods you eat, can be considered an outside invader. Whatever you put into your body, must be processed by it through the digestion process. There are foods we can consume that will increase our inflammation, think an unbalanced diet with lots of processed foods, that contain ingredients that can activate an inflammatory response. These inflammatory foods are mainstays of the standard American diet, such as red meat, white bread, pasta, chips, pastries, soda and fried foods.

One of the most powerful ways to maintain healthy inflammation levels comes from the grocery store. Dr. William Sears, shared a simple way to think about what foods to eat when seeking to reduce inflammation as part of your health journey. It has been called the Six-S “Diet” to reduce inflammation, with the word diet being used to mean the food you eat, not a program.

  1. Seafood – primarily wild pacific salmon
  2. Smoothies – multiple dark colored fruits, berries, ground flaxseed, organic yogurt
  3. Salads – colorful, arugla, kale, spinach, red peppers, tomatoes, legumes
  4. Spices – turmeric, black pepper, ginger, garlic, rosemary, chilis, cinnamon
  5. Satisfying Snacks – grazing
  6. Supplements – ONLY as necessary to fill in gaps. Omega-3, Astaxanthium

For me, I found Dr. Sear’s list so helpful when planning my daily and weekly meals. I was severely lacking in variety in my meal choices, especially with fruits and vegetables. I’m a creature of habit and was eating a consistent diet of grilled chicken and chopped green salad. I’ve found that now my salads are more thoughtfully constructed, as I seek to add in spices and colors I was lacking. Grazing has helped me with my digestive issues and reduced cravings. The one area I still struggle with is seafood. I do not like salmon, no matter how much I tried. So in this case, I have been exploring other foods rich in Omega and have added in supplementation to close the gap.

My main focus is on the top four Ss listed above. When I plan the week, I am looking to ensure that my menu revolves around these choices. Yes, I do still eat meat, especially chicken, but it no longer drives the meal plan as the main event. As a known vegetable struggler, I have found soups, salads and smoothies serve as places I can increase my intake. I made a beautiful lentil soup this week, in which I added kale, carrots, mushrooms, tomatoes and pearled farro. It’s not perfect by any means, but this helpful information has given me some much needed guidance. Further, I believe it has helped reduce inflammation in my body, as based on my recent bloodwork and weight loss.

When planning your meals for the week, try to incorporate the six Ss listed above. Let me know how it goes and more importantly how you feel. I’m excited for you and look forward to hearing how it goes.

Keep it Simple

The food we eat,
The air we breathe,
The stress we feel,
Causes us to age faster.

The common denominator in these three items listed above is me. I am blessed to be in control of the food I eat. I have limited control over the air I breathe, but I can ensure I get outside in nature everyday, rather than sitting indoors. Lastly, I can control my stress and how much I allow it to take over. I know life is not always easy, having experienced the ups and downs of it, but I know now that the choices I make are what gives me control over my health.

This is a picture of me at my unhealthiest, as a result of poor food choices, lack of movement and an incredible amount of stress. I was literally stressed out of my mind, unable to sleep and experiencing brain fog.

This is a picture of me two months into my journey to reclaim my health. I had been making better food choices and walking for two months time. I remember I felt somewhat better, but still felt stressed, struggled with sleep and some brain fog. I felt like someone who was detoxing and wasn’t sure I could succeed.

This is a picture of me eight months into my journey. I have been consistently making better food choices and moving every day – walking, doing yoga and playing pickleball. I am sleeping better and not experiencing any brain fog.

The book Primetime Health, discusses the importance many of us place on planning for our future. Dr. Sears asks, How many of you have invested in retirement savings plans and IRAs? Like me, I’m betting many of us have planned in some way for our future finances. He then asks, how many of us have planned for our future health? Do you have an IRHA? Do you know what an IRHA is?

An IRHA, is an Individual Retirement Health Account. It is a plan for our longevity and wellness. I can tell you I never thought about making deposits into an IRHA account. I lived my life as I pleased and addressed any issue as it arose. The shift here is to live more proactively, ensuring that issues are less likely to arise. This shift brings us back to the food we eat, the air we breathe and the stress we feel. If we eat less processed foods, move daily and reduce stress, we can see success on our journey. That doesn’t come in a bottle, it comes from our choices and determination to make deposits into our health accounts.

What I have been doing is hard work for sure, but it doesn’t feel hard. I have kept things very simple. I love to cook and we eat most meals at home, though we do eat out at least once a week. I keep my meals simple, protein, complex carbs and vegetables. I move everyday and enjoy what I do. As I said last week, walking daily is my meditation time. It really helps me clear my mind and process any feelings that come up. Yoga is so good for the mind and body and I take classes three times a week. Pickleball feels like playing outside when you were a young child. We laugh, we play hard and we have so much fun. Enjoying the exercise you do is important to make it happen. Find something you love!

When I first heard about the IRHA account, I began to worry. I knew I made so many bad choices through the years. I also knew it is never too late to start again, one day at a time. My days are not perfect, but my choices are far better. Knowing that I am the one who controls my outcomes gives me pause to make better choices. There are many days I feel like just staying home and not doing anything, especially now that it’s colder. I push through that and remember I must make my daily deposit into my wellness account. There is absolutely nothing more important than that.

Please share what you are doing on your health journey. I’d love to deposit those ideas into my IRHA account. Comment below, send me an email or comment on my Instagram page. Together we are stronger.

Kritajna Hum: I am gratitude

My true self is always grateful. I am connected with everything else in the universe. I am like an ocean -- the deeper I go within, the more I connect with the stillness of my true self.

I have been revisiting mantras, like the one above, that speak of the importance of gratitude on my journey to reclaim my health. My focus on gratitude has been helping to shift my attitude about myself. As I discussed in last week’s blog, I had lost my sense of gratitude due to stress, which took a huge toll on both my emotional and physical health. I talked about my use of a gratitude journal to find my way back to grace, positivity and motivation. This week, I’d like to talk about the essence of the true self, the person we are at our core.

When we are born, we enter the world alone. When we die, we transition alone. In both cases, we are hopefully surrounded by loved ones, but we spend our entire lives with ourselves, 24 hours a day. Nobody knows our true self as well as we do, the good and the bad. Think about it for a moment. Who do you speak to every moment you are awake, all day, every day?, yourself! I wonder though, how often do we show others our true self?

Many strong, high level executive women struggle in their professional lives with something known as the Imposter Syndrome, which refers to their inner fears. The fear of not being good enough, that they will be discovered as not worthy of the position they were given. In my professional career, my colleagues and I used to talk about having to wear masks all the time at work. We needed to portray ourselves as strong confident leaders, at all times, to create safe environments in which students and staff could thrive. When I think back now to our mask conversations, I wonder how many of us had these same types of fears, questioning our worthiness.

When you dive deeply into your true self, what is at the core of your inner thoughts? Do you think you’re not pretty enough, thin enough, popular enough, etc.? Or, do you think you’re strong, beautiful, smart and worthy? If you were asked to remove your mask and introduce your inner self to me right now, what would you say? Would you list your titles of mother, wife, friend, lawyer, doctor? Or, would you list your hopes and wishes for your lifetime?

As part of your health journey, I strongly believe you need to address that inner critic and make peace with your true self. We all need to remove our masks and accept ourselves as we are, not strive to be who others say we should be. For far too long, I have been trying to change my outer self, without addressing my inner self. I think this is why I have failed, time and again with this health journey. Our true self, is the one we must come to accept and love. I have been approaching this journey from a place of weakness, thinking I am not good enough as I am, leading me to a self fulfilling prophecy of failure. Reframing my health journey from a place of acceptance of who I am at my core nudges me back to gratitude. I am grateful for who I am and don’t need to change that, rather I need to use that to help me stand strong on this journey to health. I am enough, you are enough, we are enough just as we are.

Walking with my dog Jasper

In order to stay grounded in gratitude and positive self talk, I use my daily walking time to honor any feelings, either positive or negative, that I may have. Many people use meditation to reflect, but I prefer moving meditations out in nature. I walk without headphones and music and I walk alone. If my husband joins me, he knows we are not having a dialogue walk, just a quiet meditation. It is the best part of my day to just be alone with myself in nature. I walk in the silence and am able to think and meditate on my successes and failures. This sacred time allows me to better process this journey I am on. Pairing this walking time with journaling has been powerful. The journal keeps me grounded in gratitude, which helps frame a more positive inner dialogue. The walking is a clearing time. It is when I can feel whatever emotions I’m feeling, which in the past led to negative talk and quitting, acknowledge them and then let them go. This process provides space for healing and also keeps me grounded in gratitude and positive self talk.

I hope you take some time to reflect on your journey this week in your journal and out on a walk. Please reach out and and share how it is going for you? I learn so much from your journeys as well.

Dhanya Vad: I Feel Gratitude

Today in yoga class, my teacher shared the following mantra:

Dhanya Vad – I feel gratitude. When I’m grateful, I find grace. By looking for the blessings in my life, I open up a space of light in every experience; I open up the path for grace to flow. I make room in the middle of everything for gratitude.

This mantra truly resonated with me, especially as we move into my favorite season. The essence of Thanksgiving serves as a reminder to be grateful, but gratitude is more than a one day event. As an elementary school Principal, the school motto we created included the mantra, “have an attitude of gratitude.” It is something we sought to instill in our students, staff and selves. As much as I engaged in this worked, it was not always easy to truly stay in an attitude of gratitude.

Last year when my husband was very sick, I was struggling to balance work and his illness, which made it very difficult to maintain my focus on gratitude. Being at my unhealthiest definitely didn’t help either; in truth, it felt like whatever could go wrong, did. My attitude of gratitude was slipping away and in its place an attitude of complacency seeped in. I didn’t care what I ate, what I drank, how little I slept or moved. I didn’t care anymore about getting healthy, in fact I decided I hated healthy living. Que sera became my new mantra and I felt I’d just take life as it came, one day at a time.

It’s funny that I didn’t notice at the time, but the more I walked away from my attitude of gratitude, the more negative my life felt. When my trainer told me to create a gratitude journal and write in it each day, I laughed. I mean, really? She needed to tell me that? After all the work I had done around the importance of gratitude, someone needed to remind me of the power of it. Well, yes, I actually needed that reminder.

In the summer, I pulled out an empty journal I had here and decided to begin writing in it each morning. I kept things simple and followed the same pattern each day on a new page. First, I wrote about my why; why I wanted a healthy lifestyle and why I was on this path. I wrote three positive statements about myself each day. Finally, I wrote one power statement – what I hoped I would accomplish as a result of this lifestyle. I wrote these things every single day. It took about two months before I started to feel the power of them seeping into my soul and each week I felt myself growing emotionally stronger.

The truth is, I have so very much to be grateful for. Despite all I went through, I’ve found a way to get some traction again. I need to hold on to that and continue moving forward. I share all this, to remind you of the importance of gratitude. When I look around, as the mantra says, I see the blessings of my life. This has helped me find and give myself some grace. It has opened me up to new possibilities, that I would not have engaged in had I stayed focused on the negativity.

If you are feeling stuck, perhaps you can look at the blessings of your life. Believe me, sometimes I know they are hard to find, but I promise they are there. Perhaps begin with a journal as I did. Keep it simple. Take a breath and give yourself the grace you deserve. I hope this week brings you the will to start again and join me on this quest to reclaim our health.

Stress

This picture of me was taken just before I decided to retire from my much loved position as Principal of an Elementary School in New York City. It fully illustrates the impact of living under constant, high level stress on my body. Though I loved my position; my community and children, it did not love my body, especially during and after the COVID pandemic. My life was turned upside down during that time, with the loss of my mother, as well as the huge toll of working 24 hours a day to keep my school afloat despite loss of staff, family members, inconsistent messaging, funding and lack of clear guidance from the NYC DOE.

The impact on my physical body is clear to see, as I present as obese, haggard looking and quite honestly old beyond my years. The emotional toll is not as easily visible to the eye, but believe me it was there. By this point in time, it was getting harder and harder for me to find the will to engage in any social functions. Invitations to meet for dinner with friends caused anxiety and led to endless cancellations on my part. I was not able to sleep well and found myself lying awake each night filled with anxiety over all the things I needed to get done. It wasn’t uncommon to get a text, or social media post, from me at 1 AM during those times as I was wide awake.

This photo of me was taken this weekend, 8 months post retirement. These past 8 months have allowed me space and time to heal, both emotionally and physically. I wish I could say the healing was easy, but it wasn’t. During this time, I supported my husband’s healing from medical issues and cared my for aging dad in our home. But, despite those stresses, I still carved out space to focus on my own healing journey.

The impact of stress on our health cannot be underestimated. I hope my photographs serve as a reminder to us all that long term stress can destroy your health. Examining causes of stress and making changes to reduce it must be our driving force in our health journeys. For too long I acknowledged that I was under unrelenting stress, but yet did nothing about it. Rather, I used it as my excuse for being so unhealthy, as if it was expected. Finding the strength to make changes was the hardest thing I’ve ever done, yet I am so grateful I made the move as I am worth it. Living to see my grandson grow and thrive was worth it.

A dear friend said to me when I was struggling, “Laura, if you die tomorrow, there will be an ass in your chair before you’re even buried. We are all replaceable. Your family, however, will be forever changed. Your work family will move on and adjust pretty quickly to your absence. Your family will not.” That conversation really stuck with me and was what gave me the courage to step away.

Focusing first on my nutrition, helped by having to cook healthy for my two men, was pivotal. I worked with a nutritionist for the first few months to really look at what I was eating and gained knowledge of the impact of my choices on my healing. Slowing adding and increasing movement each day and tracking the impact on my body was next. Finally, returning to a yoga studio to connect with other yogis and more importantly, to myself.

I wish I could say I’m completely cured, but that would diminish the actual process of this journey. It’s a process, not a cure. I am most definitely feeling healthy again. I have a vibrant social life and have met and connected to so many great people in our new community. I have found a sport I love to play and engage in – pickleball. I have lost weight and gained better emotional health. My sleep is improving, but still not where it needs to be. I am sleeping well and getting quality REM, but still need to examine my Restoration sleep, which is still impacted by my restlessness during the night. Improved for sure, but not where I want it to be.

My next steps on my journey begin next week. I have been accepted to and registered for a Master Health Coach certification course with Dr. Spears. My specific focus will be on Adults and Aging. I cannot wait to learn more about the role nutrition plays on the body as we age as I continue on my road to Reclaiming My Health. This blog may undergo some updates during the year long coursework, as I look forward to sharing my learning with you all.

Please share your experiences with stress and nutrition. I’d love to hear what you have done to reclaim your health.